Havent really gotten to blog much at all lately so i tought id say hi. im in a good mood today...its friday! we have 49 days of school left. so exciting. my life has been interesting lately. my horrible grades caused my father much anger and he called and cut my hours at work from 5 days a week to only 3 and got me really wierd hours. such as sunday not working until after church. lol funny thing is that they really dont even need a hostess around 1:00 and i would only get to work for 3 hours b/c they will let me go when the other girl gets there at 4. o well, ill just wait and see how that goes. i know my dad loves me and only wants the best for me. i cannot (well choose not to) express how i feel about anything right now. maybe later. i must go. TTFN

i hate it so much. why do i miss him? i just really hate the fact that i cant talk to him anymore or really even look at him. when dating we use to have great conversations but now its just "hey", "hey" and its over. o well, no telling what the future will bring. today was a very stressful day. getting to school on time seemed impossible. getting prepared for all my classes and all that fun stuff was AHH. feeling dead and tired the whole day. trying to just stay awake. almost fell asleep on the way to work tonight which scares me b/c its not fun to space out while driving and wounder if you're going to crash. coffee and sleep! i helped chris close tonight b/c i forgot to tell him i had curfew till 15 min. before i was suppose to leave. he freaked out b/c he had to close kp so i told him to call dad and ask him if i could stay. dad said yes and i didnt get home till 9:45. now i just wish that i could fit hw, guitar, workout and sleep all in tonight but i know thats not gonna happen. so should i still get an apartment w/in the next year. ill be 18 in 6 months. part of me wants to get out there and say bring it on. the other part of me knows im safe w/ my family and that they love me. who knows what'll happen. first i have to get a car then a laptop then start saving for college or whatever comes after highschool then maybe i can think about an apartment. where does all the money go? i cant figure it out. well i must go start my hw. TTFN.

i havent posted for a while and everytime i start to i get halfway done and never post, so im posting now! it seems a lot has happened. Thomas broke up w/ me and ya i still miss him but im ok w/ the whole thing. i hated the drama that was involved though. like how my friends were telling me that he was going around telling other people that we never dated and that hurt cause that's just not like him. but i talked to him and cleared it up finding out that none of what was being said was actually true. stupid highschool drama, gossip and lies. now i dont want a guy in my life. i know ive said that many times but honestly i wouldnt have dated thomas if he wasnt so different (in a good way). but i can wait on someone now. (tired of the heartbreak). my job has been ok. they love working me to death. they love me!! worked morning and night shift on sat. and sun. and worked mon. night. then i get to go back tomorrow. woo-hoo! i really dont mind. its good money that i can use (who cant use money). the only thing i really miss is playing the guitar and sleeping. but i better get use to it. found out that i am sara's role model! that was exciting. so thomas and i were talking about how i have all these unfinished songs that ive written in my past and how i love to write music when the mood hits me. he got excited over it and is going to hook me up w/ some software for the computer that will record my music. that way i can make an album and get it out there. i wounder if he has an album? ill have to ask. o my grades are awful and im so unprepared for anything anymore. its literately like my time just flies out the window. how sad is that. well it is late so TTFN.