God sends us the answer to our prayers. sometimes it takes longer than we like but.........that's life. James has obtained a factory job over in New Castle. He starts work on Tuesday and has another factory that wants to interview him. He plans on working both jobs until I have the baby and then staying at one job so he can see his son everyday. Everything is good between the two of us. We only see each other once a week if even that. Busy schedules!! It seems that no matter how much time and space is between us our hearts seem to grow more and more for each other. soo I'm tired and can't think very well right now..............until I can think....TTFN.

So today was a regular day besides the fact that I had an ultrasound done!!!! They wanted to see how far along I am (17.5 weeks), and I found out what I'm having!!!!

I'M HAVING A BOY!!!

I'm so excited. I can't stop smiling! Neither can James. He was screaming and grabbing people, telling everyone our good news. The ultrasound was the coolest thing, except having to drink 32 oz. of water and holding it for 2 hours!!! (I cheated and went to the bathroom, but then chugged 40 more oz. of water). So yes, that was the terrible part. But I got to see every feature of my baby....the brain, spine, ribs, fingers, arms, kidneys, heart (that was so cool), all facial features, legs, feet, and manhood. I got to see the blood flowing through the umbilical cords. Everything looked really perfect the nurse told us. I got to see everything! Mom even taped it! James Daniel Roberts Jr. will be his full name. James' father has nothing but granddaughters so I know lil James will be spoiled rotten! It was so cute watching him kick and wiggle and toss and bounce around. Tears still come to my eyes as I think about how God creates such miracles. He was so so so beautiful. It's amazing.

P.S. Don't say anything to my father b/c he said that he wants to be surprised about what I'm having. I'm not sure how long the surprise will last b/c of all the baby stuff I'll be getting. But maybe he'll be able to be surprised on delivery day. I hope so. So please please please keep it a secret!!!!

Actions speak louder than words.
Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Tonight was my Valentines Day night. It wasn't at all romantic (though it didn't bother me at all). I cooked a meal for James (which took FOREVER, but came out really good) and he loved it. We haven't seen each other for about 2 weeks and from the moment I walked through the door he was like a puppy dog, having a horrible case of separation anxiety. He kissed me, hugged me, wrapped his arms around me, and talked to my protruding stomach. Not one word did he have to say for me to understand. In fact words might have ruined it.

Pray tonight. God is so powerful that the absence of him is so much stronger than the absence of anything on earth. Seek him and he will find you. What do you do when the situation seems so greatly grave? Pray. He will hear you when nobody else can.

My own heart leaps for joy at the thought of giving my child to God and raising him/her to know him.

As humans we go through life teaching each other how to become better people, but there are always those who we wish to call out to but can't or don't. It is so funny, inside of my mind I am already planning how I want my child to turn out. Do this, don’t do that. And the funniest thing is that a year or two ago I had to be cool and fit in with everyone, now it seems to be my child's turn. I know now that there is beauty in the uniqueness of oneself. It just makes me laugh to know I'm going to go through this all over again with him/her! Anyway about teaching others...or lack there of. Four teenagers dined today in the great O'Charleys restaurant. When they decided to leave I witnessed them throw a very small tip on the table, make a comment about it and walk out laughing. My blood boiled! I almost grabbed the money and said "I think you need it more than he does". But instead I told them to have a great day as they poured a handful of dinner mints all the way out the door. This situation left me thanking God for giving me parents that taught me what it means to be decent and kind to others.

Most craved food for the last 4.5 months: Chicken!
Worst sounding food for the last 4.5 months: Fast Food (eww)
Funniest part of last 4.5 months: Gaining weight and not feeling bad about it!

Live on and Live up.

Another typical Friday night for me. Work, home, food, and sleep (sometime tonight). It's so weird to not be driving. I don't like it at all. I miss my car :( . 4 weeks and 2 days till I can find out what I'm having! What sounds incredibly amazing right now? Mmm I know, A CRUISE. fat chance I know, but that's what makes my dreams so good. So you ask me what my future plans are looking like and I offer my response. I believe I might cut hair, maybe take some massaging classes, and basically just get some money under my belt and get ready for college. God is blessing me and I'm ever so grateful. XXX's and OOO's.
Esther, Fester, Chester.......however I should sign off tonight!