Our choir concert was tonight! It went well. Very short, which was nice. Mom’s birthday was today. #47! She is so amazing. The rock in my life, besides God. Surely the world would be a horrible place without mothers. I find myself longing, wanting, and dying to be closer to God. To feel the undying love that he surrounds all of us with. Life is not about people and objects, although the world would be different without everything that surrounds us. We speak wisdom to one another, for the differences make us wiser in the eyes of those who listen. I thought tonight about my future -which is nothing new-. After the concert was through and done an older lady with an incredibly sweet spirit and an intelligent soul approached me, grabbing me by the arm and asking "you really enjoy singing don't you?" I smiled and replied with all honesty "yes, I love to sing." "I could tell. I would love to hear you sing by yourself someday." My heart was touched as I watched her walk away. She didn't know me, but she could see my passion. I have been getting better and better as I play the guitar in my free time. My voice longs to sing the melodies within my mind. God has given me a gift and someday I hope you hear it.

So many thoughts lately. My mind feels as though it could burst if I don't write them all down. What would a book be if it contained all the thoughts of ones brain?

Thoughts of Africa and other countries in the world filled my mind today. My plans are to finish my schooling and eventually become a surgeon possibly a neurosurgeon -for the brain amazes me beyond belief-. I would love to stay in the United States working with the best technology and making a satisfactory life for myself. But would I be satisfied? My patients would be grateful for the work that I do, but my mind goes to those less fortunate than I. Let me live among the less fortunate. Their pain, suffering, and gratefulness to have each day of life is so raw and real. The money is nothing. God is everything. He has spoken the prophecy that I will preach someday. I know not whether I will become a preacher, but in some form or another I will share the glory of God. Draw me closer to you for I am so far away. Be the decision maker of my life. It is not the fear of hell that draws me to God, but something much deeper. A passion, a longing.

I must go for the songs are beginning to play in my head and I must write them down. Hopefully I can find the strumming of the guitar that goes along with the song in my head. Another song!!!

Until later....